Old Flowers

by Ian Murray

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released July 30, 2016

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Track Name: Cuss
Paint me like a prodigal nephew,
not the son.
I’ve got four fathers loving other ones
who are guaranteed heaven
‘cause I am hell-bent vanilla expense,
chained to the barrel of a gun.

Come a little closer so I can feed you my teeth.
It’s a little warmer near your majesty.

Paint me like a criminal,
black without the stripes.
I know temptation.
It’s the brilliance of white,
the pressure to swallow whatever ain’t cold
before the moment’s over.
Go on.
Blame me for the fight.

Come a little closer so I can feed you my teeth.
It's a little warmer near your majesty.

Give me the reins
to hold your repertoire of words
‘cause I am lips-deep in their connotations
but can’t taste ‘em.
You keep ‘em color-coded and branded.
One-handedness ends if you give me the reins.
It’s only natural if you’ve still got your fist
wrapped ‘round a culture but can’t find its pulse.
It’s too foregone to trust in the way you hold.
Why don’t you let go?

Come a little closer so I can feed you my teeth.
It's a little warmer near your majesty.
Track Name: Poly
I haven’t gone away.
No, I’m still treading water.
I’m neck-deep in bodies
as healthy as your baby daughter’s.
Keep your sons awake,
all wide-eyed with starry motions,
‘cause I haven’t gone away.

I need another stranger,
a little lover to love a different side of me.
There are pieces even I don't see,
parts I buried underneath my hunger.
Feed me.

I haven’t gone away,
just left a heart for slaughter,
broke a smile into pieces.
Now I’m cutting lips when we kiss.
I used to try to glue my mouth back together
with common sense,
but now whenever I say that I haven't gone away,
I don't recognize me.

I need another stranger,
a little lover to love a different side of me.
There are pieces even I don't see,
parts I buried underneath my hunger.
Feed me.

I can’t get enough.
I can’t have just one.

I need another stranger,
a little lover to love a different side of me.
There are pieces even I don't see,
parts I buried underneath my hunger.
It's no proper feast,
but God, I love the taste of you and me
and almost everybody, not without everybody.
Feed me.

There are pieces even I don't see,
parts I buried underneath my hunger.
Track Name: Ruby
Red diamond.
I'll be your red diamond.
I should have said something,
but to be someone else is so much lovelier.

I should be the one.
I should be your one and only.
Almost yours, but at a distance.
What's real will not be real enough.
I should be the one.
I should be your one and only.
I am torn, 'cause I will miss this,
being the silhouettes we know and love.

Red diamond.
I gave you fake diamonds.
We are not rare, us liars.
It's just that truth is not as fair.
The fantasy is better.

I should be the one.
I should be your one and only.
Almost yours, but at a distance.
What's real will not be real enough.
I should be the one.
I should be your one and only.
I am torn, 'cause I will miss this,
being the silhouettes we know and love.

Paint me as you wish.
Ignorance is bliss when you're the one who caused it.

I should be the one.
I should be your one and only.
Almost yours, but at a distance.
What's real will not be real enough.
Track Name: Seventy Times Seven
You were a garden I didn't know how to weed,
and it's still mesmerizing to see you so clean.
You've washed your hands so good they gleam.
You've washed your hands of me
but I'm addicted to the shine.
We both have traveled far to make it right,

and I got lost along the way.

Now I'm in the garden as one of those weeds
that will canonize sunlight
but keep God between their teeth.
Now whenever I try to smile, heaven bleeds
and I'm soaking in all it's offering.
Yeah I've survived because of rain,
but at what price do I regain that gift of life?

Color me blinded,
'cause I'm up to my eyes in water
from the storms that I cause when I'm clenching my jaw too tightly.
You would have thought that I'd be clean too.
I know I tried to forget like you do,

but I got lost along the way.

Four hundred and ninety times,
I've apologized for you, but no more.

I got lost along the way,
four hundred and ninety times.

I've bared my teeth for you,
but you sunk yours in.
Track Name: Newborn
Pick me up and I will tie the knot.
Pick me up and I’ll just say I forgot to pick me up.
I will hold up my soul for the dirt and the soil
to judge my control.

Take me.
The castles have fallen
and I left my feet on the concrete to dry.

Pick me up and I will tie the knot.
Pick me up and I will pick at the face of the juggernaut.

It’s too late
to let you say that you got me off of my knees.
I’ve found a better place all on my own.
It’s a boyish dream, but it’s all that I need.

Put me down and I will walk again.
Put me down, though I have no use for legs.
Put me down and teach the stormy season
to put me down when I feel a little to even.

Take me, suburbia.
Neighborly borrow my feet when they’re dry.

Put me down and I will walk again.
Put me down and I’ll be kicking at puzzles on the ground.

It’s not too late,
but don’t you dare say that you got me off of my knees.
I’ve found a better place all on my own.
It’s a boyish dream, but it’s all that I need.
Track Name: Atlantic
I want to bury my bones in you.
A grave has never looked so beautiful.
I want you.
I want nothing else but separation
in between my natural desire and faded fire.

Let’s just run away,
dig deep ‘til we are safe.

I’ll be there, across the water,
with my pride around my ankles
until you decide to retrieve me.
I’ll only take my skin off if I’ve run out of religion.
I will only speak in tongues when God’s away.
If he’s awake, we’ll run away.

I want to paint you across the board,
bleed you dry and make your colors mine.
I want you.
I want nothing else but desperation
pinned against the sheets and tangled wires of the ninth.

Let’s just run away,
dig deep ‘til we are safe.

I’ll be there, across the water,
with my pride around my ankles
until you decide to retrieve me.
I’ll only take my skin off if I’ve run out of religion.
I will only speak in tongues when God’s away.
If he’s awake, we’ll run away.

We’ll break apart,
speak in constellations.
It’s too long to cross,
but if the waves are patient,
I can lie by their watered-down smiles
and wait a little longer.

For you, I can wait a little longer.
Track Name: High-Class
Where there’s love,
there is a price to pay.

Don’t you wish you were the richest of all?
I’m not half as good poor,
but I can’t afford to feel something
aside from null.
I’m not a bourgeoisie, blue-blooded boy.
All I’ve known is poverty’s motherly smile,
how it comes and goes
like the waves of a blue-blooded ocean.

Where there’s love,
there is a price to pay.

Don’t you wish you were richer?
If this is a matter of wealth,
it would not matter at all
if I had another shot to settle my debts.
Lord knows our happiness is expensive
to keep alive.
Would it still die if you went from rags to wishes?
Close your eyes and hope a penny’s fine.
I think it’s alright.